Today we celebrated J's 5th birthday! How clearly I remember those two days in the hospital waiting for her to be born. She has grown into a precocious little girl. It is always fun to see all the grandchildren together.....
Do you truly believe that what you believe is really true? A question to think about from 'The Truth Project'. I think I do. In good times I think I do. In hard times, it is much more difficult. I loved the visual of the little boy jumping off the diving board into the arms of his mother. An example of childlike faith. Am I willing to jump into the arms of my Father?
This weekend we got to keep R while Mike and Dryscha were out of town. Such a little sprout! I wonder if he realizes the uniqueness of tripletness and missed his brothers. He didn't appear to. We did enjoy the zoo and the wonder of Lake Michigan. Just walks around the neighborhood take on a different perspective when you view them through the eyes of a 2 year old. This weeble wobbled, fell down and would get up to wobble some more......
Darlene is a different ethnicity than I am. When she had her nervous breakdown a few years ago, her family was very cold towards me. Maybe because I am white and because she is black. Maybe because I am in HR and they thought I cared for her only because it was my job to do so. I knew after my first phone call to see how she was that I was not welcome.
Today when she called me she told me that she made it very clear to her family that if anything should happen to her, that they were to call me. She told them that I am to be at any surgical proceedure. That I could come visit any time. She told them I am her true friend. I do not call to be nosy. I call because I care. Her mom agreed. She told her that now she knows and she likes me as well. I guess there are no shades of gray here. We are friends. That is as black and white as it gets.
Saying Goodbye is never easy but it seems to be a common word in my vocabulary. It was a week ago that we found out that Todd had left us. Last night was good-bye. Connie was able to tell his family how much we loved him and that we got to see him at a very positive time in his life. I miss him.
Today the funeral home that Todd is at called me. Death. Because he was alienated from his family, they wondered if I could help with some personal information about him. They also told me that because he had been dead several days before he was found, he was not able to be viewed. How tragic that there was such a chasm between he and his family.
The boys were over tonight. Life. So much life. We played with A and M and when we got home, played in the backyard. E discovered the hose was left on. He delighted in spraying everyone. We told him to stop and he just stood there, dimples deep, and kept spraying away. It doesn't get much better than that!
Another blow for my Sears family. Todd died yesterday. He had a lot of struggles. Personal demons. We loved him. He brought joy to our hearts. Connie reminded me today that we got to celebrate his birthday with him. He was so excited to share that special day with his friends at Sears. Todd knew the Saviour in his mind. Did he have him in his heart?
Today when I went to get groceries I drove by the police station. Outside was a squad car covered with flowers that was a memorial to an officer who died last weekend. He did not die on duty, but an officer is down non-the-less. I remember when Mike was about to graduate, another officer, Tom Goodwin, was gunned down. It made me so vividly aware that someday, we might be morning an officer down. It is sobering.
Darlene is hitting the wall today. Her blood count is so bad that she cannot have any visitors for 5 days. I called her this evening and told her she is on my mind and she was in horrible pain. I wish I could see her. My heart longs to be able to encourage her.
Mike is our newest victim of this thing called cancer. His spirits are good. He was so very angry when Darlene found out her diagnosis. They share the same doctor.
I hope God can use me in both of their lives in simple ways.
I am a wife, mom, sister, grandma, friend, and human resource specialist who happens to love reading, animals,Diet Coke, simple pleasures, being outside, changing seasons, my family, my Lord. I am a private person. A passionate person. A person who sometimes struggles with being still and knowing that He is God. Sometimes I think God looks down at me and says, 'Becky, Becky, Becky'. I then remind Him that He created me totally unique and thank him that He knows my name!